God's Provision: Part 1- Knowledge

² May God give you more and more grace and peace as you grow in your knowledge of God and Jesus our Lord. ³ By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself by means of his marvelous glory and excellence. ⁴ And because of his glory and excellence, he has given us great and precious promises. These are the promises that enable you to share his divine nature and escape the world’s corruption caused by human desires. -2Peter1:2-4

On Sunday, I was driving home from an amazing weekend at Lakewood Retreat Center from camp with Baylife's middle school. I had just been stretched and challenged by a group of entering 6th grade girls. Sidenote: They are going to be a group of girls who love the Lord and are unstoppable as they get older, because they are already seeking God so well. Anyways, so I am driving home, praying thanksgiving over the whole weekend, and the provisions which I will talk about next time, and God smacks me with thoughts about other blessings he has given me.
Are you ready for this? It totally blew my mind, and as I have been talking to others about it, it has just grown into delighting so much in my Lord. So here it is.... God has revealed desires of my heart, and glimpses of my future in his perfect timing. Yes this thought is not completely radical. In Christianese, we hear all the time God's timing is perfect and he will provide for us everything (Matthew 6:19-24). And we spit these nice sayings out to our friends in need, but ultimately completely trusting the Lord in this, when we feel we haven't gotten everything we need, want or I dare say it think we deserve (this is a whole other discussion in itself). God's timing in revealing this: that he will bestow upon me knowledge of the many unknowns in my life when he wants, is so important and I am grateful for this thought process he gave me. My prayer is that I will continue to trust in that he will reveal in his perfect timing his plans for me.

Here are a few examples:

I have always been sure that I would want to work full time at my career. Not in a feminist type of way, but I enjoy working, and my job I get to minister to families in a giving way. However in the last year, my desire has been transforming into, one of it would be ok one day for me to be parttime and stay at home to care for a family or to do more volunteering. Now this is a radical change in my way of thinking, that could have only have come from the Lord because I have always been taught about having financial security, etc and to work hard for what you have. I know this change came at the perfect timing in my life, because if this would have been my desire to only work parttime in my life, then I most likely would not have gone to grad school to become an occupational therapist. And I love my job, and I moved to the city I am in now only for my job, and if I wouldn't have moved to this city I wouldn't have found my lifegroup, and wouldn't have had the opportunity to build the friendships I have now. And these friendships are amazing because they are based on accountabilty, trust, and a solid foundation of Christ centeredness. WOW! So one little glimpse too early from the Lord could have changed a lot of my life.

Second, since I have been working as a pediatric OT, I have a huge desire to adopt children one day (after marriage). I have always wanted to have a family, however never really considered adoption. We have so many foster children, who are amazing I treat and they just need a great home to be loved in. This provision is different from the first, in that, my life choices would not have been changed by having this glimpse too early, however I think God was protecting my heart so I wouldn't have this desire for too long. Which could have lead to anxiousness. If God would have revealed this to me when I was 15, and I am now 25, that would have been 10 years already that I would have had the desire to adopt kids, and in that I am not dating anyone right now, I still have sometime before I will be married and able to adopt. So that would have been a long time to have this desire, unfilled.